Hello, my name is Ofelia and it's been more than a month since I last posted. It's been a rough month. My grandmother passed away, my depression has been horrific and man, do I miss cigarettes.
Positive Report:
Last time I posted I mentioned that we were about to attempt a new bedtime routine for the Mayor. I am happy to report that it has been a successful endeavor and more nights then not she will go to bed by herself again.
Now to figure out how to keep her asleep all night and in her own bed - but one thing at a time, right?
Becoming a Non-Smoker Update:
I'm a terrible quitter. LOL I did pretty well the first few weeks of January and then have bought a couple packs since then. It's slow going but I'm determined! Now if I could just get my friends to quit too. LOL (so far I've knitted 3 scarves and am currently working on my 4th)
Depression:
SUCKS! My sweet hubby pointed out a silly cycle I have put myself into which has really made me think... After the conversation last night I feel a lot better this morning. My new mantra - no judging myself. Depression is/can be debilitating. Most people's response to that is "just do it" - well, the ones that have no understanding when it comes to depression anyway. At least in my case when I get way low - I can't "just do it". And when I can't force myself to then I get mad at myself for not being able to "just do it" which makes everything worse and even more overwhelming. Instead of spending my mental energy on why I have fallen into the hole this time - I'm using it beating myself up. Terrible cycle.
Exercise Update:
I'm getting there. :) Biggest Loser + Knitting + exercise bike = 1.5 hours/approx. 900 calories
Depression is a beast to wrestle with - I've been there and still visit occasionally. I have no real advice to tell you, except to keep working at it. For me, I decided one day that I was tired of feeling like that and that I wanted to change - and I forced myself to do it. Every time I felt myself "slipping", my "inner voice" was like a drill sargent, reminding me of my goals and how I wanted to feel. It worked for me, but it may not work for you. But don't punish yourself - just remember that tomorrow is another day and you can always try again.
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