One of the side effects I am finding with being "self aware" is that I end up feeling like a horrible person. It's hard to realize the negative and not dwell on it...or expect to be able to change it immediately or to expect changing it to erase the past. So yes, I've made mistakes, yes, I have personality traits that are undesirable but all in all I have to remember that I'm still "me" ... underneath all the negative is still a person who strives to be better and change what needs to be changed and that is a reason to love myself.
Side Note: When I was looking for the name for this blog I had this idea that I wanted to start writing a blog that was my path in overcoming the past (aka the way I was raised) but instead it has turned into my writing about my daily struggle with self-growth and awareness. The irony is that I think that makes the name of my blog even more fitting. Each day I'm a little further down the road of life and each post is essentially talking about yesterday's stretch of that road. So now when I see the name I am reminded that yes - I still have lots of work to do but since I'm doing it - I'm further from yesterday's stretch and on to a new one today. Cool, huh? (serious thanks to my bestie who helped me come up with the name - who knew it would help with remaining positive about my journey.)
"A man is but the product of his thoughts - what he thinks, he becomes." - Gandh
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